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I am currently seperated with my husband.  We seperated because he still has not grown up.  He drinks too much and refuses to grow up. He has never cheated on me. We still love each other very much but because he refuses to change for our family I refuse to accept him back.

Last night I dreamt that he had moved far away and that I went looking for him.  When I found him he was with anther woman.  That he was everything I wanted in my family to that woman. What was weird was that I stayed in the house he bought together with her.  I couldn't help but feeling so overwehlmed inside.  I felt the worst seeing this man who refused to be a part of a family, being part of someone elses.  In my dream I did everything to make him guilty and she was nothing but nice to me.  I was so angry and hurt.  I still can't get over that dream.  It seemed so real.

Maybe this dream is telling me to move on.

I hate having those kind of dreams!  I once had a dream that I walked in on my husband have sex with another women and he didn't even stop when I walked in!!  When I woke up I was really angry with him and it stuck with me all day.  He kept saying "babe you can't be mad at me!  i can't help what you had me do in my dream!"  I got over it  because I know how stupid it was to be angry with him.  I know it was just my on insecurities.  I always felt most insecure while I was pregnant and that is when the dream happened with my last pregnancy.  I know he would never cheat on me, because we were both cheated on by our ex spouses.  She slept with his best bud and my ex not only messed around with my sister ( no sex but kissing and heavy petting) but also he did have sex with a stripper he met at the titty bar he went to all the time to get wasted.  My first husband had problems growing up as well.  He drank, partied, went to strip joins 5-6 times a week and blew tons of money where we couldn't even pay bills.  I stayed for so long because my famliy kept telling me I need to stay for our daughter but they were so wrong.  What is even worse is that he ended up leaving me!  It still embarasses me about how stupid I was!  But it all worked out because after we divorced (I had to pay for the damn thing btw) I found my husband and he is the greatest thing that ever happened to me.  So I think you need to make sure you are done completly with your husband before moving on because it does sound like you love him and if you do decide to get a divorce, just know that there more then likely is someone a lot better waiting for you!  My husband and I both have children from our first marriages and when you see us out with all of our goof troop, you would never know that we have any step mom, dad or kids!  There is life after divorce and it can be great.  Keep your chin up, it sounds like your a pretty smart women.  I just thought I would share my experince with you.  Girl, I know what your going through...been threre done that